Give me water.

Hey, good morning.

My current state of being is alive. But I’m trudging ya’ll. I’m feeling like I’m losing sense of who I am, what makes me happy and what I’m am able to accomplish.

Maybe, it’s just an evolution of the imposter syndrome that has ran rampant.

Maybe, it’s cause i’m on the precipise of the biggest life decision I’ve made in a while and I’m utterly terrified on what life looks like on the other side.

Maybe, it’s cause with that change looming, I can’t even afford to take care of myself.

Maybe, it’s that I feel like I’m losing dance.

Maybe, it’s that I feel like I’m losing everything.

My affirmations feel like I’m talking to myself, feel like I’m lying to myself. This feeling of being stuck. Why can’t I get away from it? What will it take?

I really don’t know what to do yall.

-R