transitions

Change is difficult.

I’ve always known that to be true - although it’s never been scary or anxiety inducing. Change is inevitable. I used to have a good grip on riding the waves of change. As my heart finds itself in a long shift into the energy that will carry my through my next chapters, I realize that people will actively push back on accepting those changes.

I wish it was simply someone pitching a fit, but it can be so more complex that ~ and buried in layers of old resentment, jealousy, or just a bias that is imbedded all that someone may or might not do.

I can’t be one of those people, although I have. This new journey I find myself on mentally and spiritually, and hopefully physically (at least more often), leaves little patience or sympathy for those who want me to continue to act within the vision of that they once and still do see me.

I won’t let you. If we can’t talk and you can accept me, I won’t let you be an obstacle. You will be an apparition, not real, a phantasm - and I will accept that change from you.

I’m tired of doing my work on top of your work.

But I still love you.

-Raoh